Recharging

• Posted onAli J.
• in All Things Fashionable
• onNovember 19, 2014
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      This morning, courtesy of my hubby, I was able to enjoy a few hours of mommy time. It’s not something that happens often and the last couple times I’ve attempted to have a “mommy day” (which isn’t really a day at all but more like an hour or two) it’s turned into work on taxes day or grocery shopping day. But on this particular day all went to plan and I sat in my quiet house this morning sipping coffee, watching cheesy TV shows that I’ll never admit to actually watching and dancing around in my pajamas to alt-J. Being a stay at home mom is the most difficult job I’ve ever had and while I love it more than anything it is the only job you never get a break from. I’ve quickly learned that having those quiet tiny little moments are a must! It’s a very strange thing getting used to never being completely alone.  To always being “on”. It’s making sure he doesn’t swallow the rocks he just put into his mouth, then getting him off of the table (how did he get up there anyways?) Then teaching him that we don’t poke the dog in the eye with toy screwdrivers, or anything else for that matter. Making sure he eats balanced meals despite him throwing everything you’ve just prepared on the floor or feeding it to the dog…unless its pasta of coarse. Pasta is never wasted around here. And in the midst of all the chaos that is a silly little boy I wonder, am I teaching him what I’m supposed to, did I read enough to him today, did I show him something new, did I set a good example by reacting to him in the way I hope he will react to and treat others? It can be exhausting both mentally and physically. After just an hour it’s amazing how recharged that little bit of solitude makes me feel and then I can’t get back to my little guy fast enough to see what amazing new thing he will do today or to see what little misadventures we will get into. So while it may be the hardest job in the world it’s also the most fulfilling. When he gets home and runs into my arms and hugs me oh so tight and says “ma-ma” oh so sweet it’s the best reward I could ever ask for.